Next few months

I just read the last couple of posts. My goodness, I've been depressed. My last post was written after about 3 nights of little sleep. Cloudy days, lack of sleep, stress, feeling sorry for myself = Beth in a crabby mood. And that's what was happening, feeling like for every one step forward, I was getting pushed back three. Not that much has changed since Monday, but thankfully my attitude is better. Sometimes I don't even like to be around me......

I am trying to begin to plan out my life again. I know, the plans could go out the window in a moments notice, but I'm becoming ok with that. I have been attempting to "live life again", but there is this sense of guilt that I shouldn't be having fun. It is a silly thing to say because I'm sure Jared is having fun where he is, so why can't I?! :) I've planned my next vacation, going to a state I've never been to. Have made other plans to travel in state for a weekend. Planning on going to 5th/6th grade church camp this summer. That should be fun, I've never attended camp either as a child or a staff member. I think this "Sarge" can handle it though. :) I'm looking forward to all of these new adventures. Never a dull moment in my life!