Monday, May 23, 2011


On Mother's Day, the following song, Blessings by Laura Story, was sung during the offertory at church.  I heard it during the first service and then went into each of the other services so I could hear it again and again.  The last chorus when she sang, "What if my greatest disappointments, or the aching of this life, is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy" summed up much of what I think about the last four years of my life.  If the last four years of my life had never happened, I don't think I would have the mindset I have now, knowing that God is the only One who can satisfy.  Enjoy the lyrics and I have provided a link if you want to hear it.

Verse 1:
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

Verse 2:
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

May So Far

This month is already half over, it seems like it just started. I think time is going so much faster this year.

The month began with a significant date in my life. It would have been my second wedding anniversary on May 2. I will be honest, it was a little rough, at least rougher than it was last year. I was baffled by that. The only conclusion that I could arrive at was that I had a clearer mind this year. I was much more aware that this chapter of my life is closed.  This date will always be a part of my life, but as time passes the memory of this date will fade.  I don't know exactly why that reality struck me this year, but it did.  I was so grateful for the people that remembered and the ones who didn't even know but when they found out were so supportive.  I am sometimes in awe of how God brings people into your life to walk you through these kinds of days.  They may not even say anything, but for me just knowing that they are there and are either praying for me or just giving me a hug makes all the difference in the world.  For that, I thank you.

Next happening.  I have a garden at my house!!!!  I've never tried to grow anything in Midland so we will see how it goes.  Saturday afternoon was spent fixing sprinklers, digging up some unwanted vines and making the dirt garden worthy.  It took about 5 hours but hopefully in a few months it will be worth it!  We planted tomatoes, zucchini, bell peppers, hot peppers, and cucumbers. There are more plants on the other side, but I only took this picture this morning.   I'm so excited about this!!  

I went out of town this past week to Dallas for a church conference.  My co-workers and I were able to attend a Rangers game while we were there.  They had to stop the game in the middle of it because of rain, but after about 45 minutes the game continued.  I love baseball so it was fun to be able to go to one in person again, even if I am a Braves fan.  We had fun and ate lots of good food that we don't have in Midland.  It was nice to leave Midland for a few days, but I always can't wait to get home.

May has had its ups and downs so far but that isn't stopping me from moving forward.  I am grateful for the past and wouldn't change it, but I'm looking towards the future and what God has planned.

Romans 5:3-5 And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

One of many beautiful west Texas sunsets