Thursday, February 11, 2016

It is Well

I'll begin by saying last year was a tough one for me.  I can't necessarily put my finger on it, but I know that spiritually, it was a desert season for me.  There were lots of personal changes too.  Moving again, thankfully only a few blocks from our rental home, total remodel of the purchased home, adjusting to life with a two year old. (I think as they grow, it is a constant adjustment!) Some traveling thrown in there, medical issues with some family members, changing churches, and altogether too many changes and too much chaos for someone who likes order and everything going to HER plan.

Late in the year, I finally realized that instead of focusing on everything happening around me, I should be focusing on the Lord.  I know, duh, but I'm not a quick learner.  At the beginning of this year, the Lord reminded me of one of my favorites hymns.  It is Well with My Soul.  I have been listening to the Tyler Dodds, Songs for the Church, version of it for the past couple of weeks, non-stop.  (You can find it on ITunes.) It has really helped me focus, understanding that no matter what is going on around me, whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, it is well with my soul.  Nothing else matters.  I get so caught up in fixing, what I deem is an issue or a problem, that I sometimes miss what the Lord may be trying to teach me or show me, in the refining process of making me more like Him.  I expect obedience and submission from my daughter, and He expects it from me also.  I'm no different than a child, because that's who I am, His child.

I am going to try to keep this phrase in the forefront of my mind throughout this year.  I know for certain that it will be a crazy one again, it's already proven to be one!  :)