Sunday, April 15, 2012

Weekend thoughts

On Thursday and Friday I was again able to volunteer for my favorite conference at the church I attend.  I think I get more out of the conference than the people that are attending!

Throughout the weekend you hear testimonies of people who tell about struggles in their lives and how God is walking or has walked them through the difficult times.  I know that God had me there for one specific thing that one particular woman talked about.  She was talking about her home life growing up and how her dad had died when she was young.  She had to then become self-sufficient and learned to do a lot on her own.  After she was married, she still had that same mentality and it was a struggle for her and her husband.

Wow.  That pretty much summed up some things that I am going through as a new wife.  I am so used to having to do things on my own that I am struggling to let my husband help me.  This includes physical things and emotional things.  Although I was married before, I had to continue to be the strong one in those few weeks (just to clarify, I was fine with that, I was there to be his helper).  I am now married to someone (other than God) who can help me with the burdens and struggles that I have.  However, it is difficult for me to let go and have someone help me, for fear I may have to be on my own again........ it has happened before.  I can't live in that fear.  God has given me a Godly man who will pray for me and help me to work through the things that weigh me down and I need to let him.  I was thankful that God showed me that this is a weak spot in my life that I need to turn over to Him.  His grace will always be sufficient, no matter what.

In my Bible reading today this is what I read, He repeats Himself for a couple of verses. It is something that I need to repeat over and over to myself also.

Psalm 115:9-11:

O Israel, trust in the Lord; He is their help and their shield.
O house of Aaron, trust in the Lord; He is their help and their shield.
You who revere the Lord, trust in the Lord; He is their help and their shield.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

He makes beautiful things

God talks to me in various ways, but I think music is the way that I hear Him speak to me the most.  Nature is another way, but with that I feel overwhelmed by Him and how awesome He is.

There is a song, not sure of the title, but it goes:

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

Then the song goes on to talk about how He makes us new in Him.

This song is how I feel my life is right now.  Out of all the pain that I have experienced, He is really making beautiful things.  And I can see it!!!  Not that I couldn't see it before, because I could, it is just that it is so very blatant now with my new life with my husband.

I have yet to see any wedding pictures, so I thought I would share a picture of the two of us on our honeymoon.  We had such a great time and this was definitely a place that I saw the awesomeness of our Creator!