On Thursday and Friday I was again able to volunteer for my favorite conference at the church I attend. I think I get more out of the conference than the people that are attending!
Throughout the weekend you hear testimonies of people who tell about struggles in their lives and how God is walking or has walked them through the difficult times. I know that God had me there for one specific thing that one particular woman talked about. She was talking about her home life growing up and how her dad had died when she was young. She had to then become self-sufficient and learned to do a lot on her own. After she was married, she still had that same mentality and it was a struggle for her and her husband.
Wow. That pretty much summed up some things that I am going through as a new wife. I am so used to having to do things on my own that I am struggling to let my husband help me. This includes physical things and emotional things. Although I was married before, I had to continue to be the strong one in those few weeks (just to clarify, I was fine with that, I was there to be his helper). I am now married to someone (other than God) who can help me with the burdens and struggles that I have. However, it is difficult for me to let go and have someone help me, for fear I may have to be on my own again........ it has happened before. I can't live in that fear. God has given me a Godly man who will pray for me and help me to work through the things that weigh me down and I need to let him. I was thankful that God showed me that this is a weak spot in my life that I need to turn over to Him. His grace will always be sufficient, no matter what.
In my Bible reading today this is what I read, He repeats Himself for a couple of verses. It is something that I need to repeat over and over to myself also.
O Israel, trust in the Lord; He is their help and their shield.
O house of Aaron, trust in the Lord; He is their help and their shield.
You who revere the Lord, trust in the Lord; He is their help and their shield.