New Year

2010 came in a very lack luster fashion. I was in bed. I was tired after all my travels and fun with the family. :) Whether or not I was awake for it, it still came! At least that was my logic.

Yesterday was one of those feel sorry for myself days. It wasn't because of Jared not being here, it was an attitude problem. I didn't feel well and my back was killing me. I watched t.v., read, and computered, is that a word? I did absolutely nothing. I don't know what my problem was. I told myself that today was going to be different, I was at least going to be productive. Guess what, I woke up late, and my back is still hurting. So much for that idea. I have the 'why do today what I can put off until tomorrow' mindset. I have one goal today. Work on my Bible study. That should help with the attitude, right?!

Rabbit trail for a second there. Back to the new year. My mom and I were talking about the fact that I have had to deal with some major things very quickly. I've had to deal with legal things (there was no will, so that means lots of paperwork), the first date anniversary, Thanksgiving, Christmas (which was also our engagement day), New Year, other various things, and then the wedding. All tough things for me. I am so glad that I got to experience all those 'firsts' last year. There are still some more that I will have to experience this year, but I feel like most of the major ones are behind me. I know this doesn't mean that 2010 is going to be a bed of roses, but it is somewhat of a relief to start this year off with a clean slat.

One thing that I have learned in these last months is that I need to live my life to the fullest. I am a practical person. I have worked since I got out of high school, saving what I could, because I feel more secure knowing I would have something to fall back on. Although I have never had much money, nor do I want it, I wanted to make sure that I could remain self-sufficient no matter what. This mindset means that I don't like to spend money, especially on myself. I hope to change that this year. I want to see this beautiful country that God has created. I actually want to take a vacation, not cleaning the house, but doing something fun. One saying I found is "life is not defined by how many breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away". I have just been breathing, not necessarily enjoying the breaths that I take. I want to change that too. It may take me a while incorporate this new plan, but one step at a time! I should really get that passport too, leaving the country is not really a priority, but just in case, right?! :)

I guess that is my New Year's resolution. Of course, this is my plan, but it may not be God's plan, so I guess we will have to see how this year unfolds. My life is in God's hands.....

Wisconsin

I made it back to Wisconsin....finally. The travels were interesting. Delays and snow had us beginning to think that we would spend the night in Houston. Thankfully we were able to get to Chicago and the roads were good enough to get to my parent's house at 2am.

We befriended the flight attendants while we were sitting in the airport. I would recommend doing that anytime you are delayed. We were able to get the inside scoop on whether or not we were going to get out, and when we finally did board, they asked us if we wanted to move to an empty row that was available, and we got asked what we wanted to drink sooner than when the cart was going to get to us. I think that they felt sorry for me (us). While delayed we were discussing the wedding etc. and they asked us why are husbands weren't with us. Katherine responded that her husband was working and kinda talked about that for a few seconds, but that didn't deter them to ask me where mine was. The poor girl's look on her face when I responded that my husband was in heaven. Wasn't the response that she was expecting! They were so nice about it though, and although tears came to my eyes having to say that, I didn't lose it. Thank goodness!

Wedding. It was great to spend a little time with Ruthanne prior to her wedding. Not as much as I would have liked, but I couldn't begrudge her her honeymoon! I'm sure her husband wouldn't have gone for that anyway! :)

This was one day that I dreaded prior to the date and this one I was right about. My emotions did get the better of me during the ceremony, and afterward. Getting four hours of sleep the night before didn't help either! I'm always more emotional when I haven't had enough sleep. The message was really good, but hard to listen to. The pastor talked about the husband and wife's role in a marriage. The primary role for both of them being to help to sanctify each other, preparing one another for the day when they stand before the Lord on judgment day. All the heaven talk, and listening the vows of "in sickness and in health, until death do you part" was difficult. But like my mom said, I made it through it, and it is one more "first" down! I also saw relatives and people that I hadn't seen since my wedding that were extremely kind and supportive. Didn't help with the tears though. :) I am so happy for my sister and our new bro, and I am glad I was there to see the wedding. My sister was gorgeous (as usual, I don't think she's ever had a "bad look" a day in her life) and they both were beaming. I pray they have a long and happy life together! I just hope I didn't dampen their day! I tried to hold it together, but sometimes I can't control it. I'm getting better everyday though! This weekend was just one more step in this journey.

I'm enjoying the time with the family, just hanging out today and staying inside! It is cold outside, high of 27 predicted today. The snow is beautiful, especially yesterday when the trees were all frosted over and were completely white. Wisconsin is such a pretty place.