The Dance

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance (I would change this to God)
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey, who's to say you know I might have chanced it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes, my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

I've heard this song shuffle through my iTunes many times lately.  I'm sure this song means something other than my take on it.  Every time I hear it, I can't help but think of my life after Jared went to be with the Lord.  His sister told me right after he died that I shouldn't listen to this song and for quite awhile I couldn't.  Now that has changed.  I realize that every bit of pain that I went through was worth it.  I still don't understand the "whys" but not experiencing the pain would have meant that I also would have missed the dance.

P.S. Just to clarify, the line "Hey, who's to say you know I might have chanced it all" doesn't hold true for me, because I would do it all over again.