Freedom!!

I have some very exciting news!  I'm off Facebook! :)  I finally deleted my account after months of debating on whether or not I should do it.  I never post anything and was irritated with the changes that Facebook made with their last update.  The only reason I kept it was to keep up with people, or so I thought.  I really don't do that, I just read what someone wants me to keep up with.  People only post what they want me to know and that is fine.  That's what I did too.  The final straw for me was seeing the drama that can unfold on Facebook.  I had to ask myself if it was worth it to have other people's lives affect mine and the answer was no.  I am now living in the freedom that deleting my Facebook gave to me.  I know, it may sound corny, but I'm enjoying it!

I am striving this year to be more disciplined, especially with working out, reading my Bible everyday, getting to work on time, going to bed at a decent hour, etc.  So far, for the most part, I've kept up.  I still haven't begun to work out everyday, but have been at least a couple of times a week.  The other things are going well and I like being more scheduled.  I believe that God wants us to be orderly.  He wants us to be disciplined in what we do.  I am usually a schedule orientated person, but in the past two years I've lived a very undisciplined life.  I think it was because my life seemed like it was in chaos so I let everything else follow that same pattern.  I'm trying to change that now and I'm liking the routine so much better.  Mind you, it doesn't always go as planned but it helps.

The Dance

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance (I would change this to God)
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey, who's to say you know I might have chanced it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes, my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

I've heard this song shuffle through my iTunes many times lately.  I'm sure this song means something other than my take on it.  Every time I hear it, I can't help but think of my life after Jared went to be with the Lord.  His sister told me right after he died that I shouldn't listen to this song and for quite awhile I couldn't.  Now that has changed.  I realize that every bit of pain that I went through was worth it.  I still don't understand the "whys" but not experiencing the pain would have meant that I also would have missed the dance.

P.S. Just to clarify, the line "Hey, who's to say you know I might have chanced it all" doesn't hold true for me, because I would do it all over again. 

Odds and Ends

I hope you all had a great Christmas and a wonderful New Year's Eve.  I personally had a wonderful Christmas.  I'm very excited about the camo jacket that I received from Mr. E. :)  Rang in the New Year last night, but it was very low key, we just watched the ball drop from home.  So nice though.

Remember the snowfall that we were receiving during the last post? I think we got about 3 inches of snow which made for a white Christmas here in Midland.  Very strange considering that Wisconsin had no snow at all.  Speaking of Wisconsin, I was able to go up there this past week.  Stonegate staff was given one of the best Christmas presents, the week between Christmas and New Years Day off of work.  I didn't realize how much I needed to take a break and it felt so good!  So, because I did have the week off, I went to visit the family and had a great time.
 
Mr E. and I had planned to go hunting this weekend, but instead decided to stick around Midland and get some of those "to do" things off the list.  I was able to clean out some stuff in the garage, clean up branches in the backyard and the best thing was that Mr. E put in a new kitchen faucet for me.  He's so handy to have around.  I'm sure this isn't as exciting for some as it is for me! :)

2011 was a good year from me.  God provided for me in ways that I never expected, He took care of me and held me under His wing.  I can't imagine this life without Him and I am blessed to be His child.  I don't know what 2012 holds for me, but I must say I'm excited about it.  The one thing that I do know is that my God will supply all my needs and He will walk with me throughout the coming year, never leaving.  That alone gives me great peace about my future.  Happy New Year!