I'll begin by saying last year was a tough one for me. I can't
necessarily put my finger on it, but I know that spiritually, it was a
desert season for me. There were lots of personal changes too. Moving
again, thankfully only a few blocks from our rental home, total remodel
of the purchased home, adjusting to life with a two year old. (I think
as they grow, it is a constant adjustment!) Some traveling thrown in
there, medical issues with some family members, changing churches, and
altogether too many changes and too much chaos for someone who likes
order and everything going to HER plan.
Late in the year,
I finally realized that instead of focusing on everything happening
around me, I should be focusing on the Lord. I know, duh, but I'm not a
quick learner. At the beginning of this year, the Lord reminded me of
one of my favorites hymns. It is Well with My Soul. I have been
listening to the Tyler Dodds, Songs for the Church, version of it for
the past couple of weeks, non-stop. (You can find it on ITunes.) It has
really helped me focus, understanding that no matter what is going on
around me, whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, it is well with my soul.
Nothing else matters. I get so caught up in fixing, what I deem is an
issue or a problem, that I sometimes miss what the Lord may be trying to
teach me or show me, in the refining process of making me more like
Him. I expect obedience and submission from my daughter, and He expects
it from me also. I'm no different than a child, because that's who I
am, His child.
I am going to try to keep this phrase in
the forefront of my mind throughout this year. I know for certain that
it will be a crazy one again, it's already proven to be one! :)
